JustJoJan Day 17 – The Burden of Complaining

I feel like I’ve spent a lot of this year so far complaining, which isn’t so much fun for you guys to read, I’m guessing.  I also had a pretty rough day yesterday, but I honestly couldn’t even tell you why.  There really wasn’t a reason for it, other than it was a Monday and I just wasn’t thinking clearly.

I’m feeling much better today, though.

Adelle asked me to send her a care package (which included an extra cell phone because she’s pretty awful to her phones and she can’t upgrade until May).  I was planning to get everything at lunch and then stop at the post office after work.  I ended up not being able to get everything at lunch because I didn’t realize I still couldn’t walk more than a block or so without hurting.  (When is this going to be healed? Sheesh!)

So, I was thinking about the fact that I was hurting and before I left work I decided to go straight home and finish it tomorrow.  However, as I was leaving the parking lot, I decided what the hell.  I turned the other way and stopped at the grocery store.  I was looking for some very specific things in a store I wasn’t used to, so I ended up walking around the store longer than I wanted.  Then, when I finally checked out and was on my way to the car, I realized I’d forgotten something that was on the other side of the store.

I decided right then that I was for sure going to wait until tomorrow to send the package, even if it meant a little longer lunch standing in a line at the post office.  But wouldn’t you know it… I found a Walgreens on my way home (a much smaller store) and ran in to get the last thing.  I also realized that the post office near my house was open later, and I still had another 25 minutes.  I ended up making it in time and getting her package sent off.

For all the negative thinking I did throughout the day, I was still able to get done exactly what I wanted to and now I’m home, sitting in front of my computer and relaxing.  I’m thinking I could have saved myself a whole hell of a lot of emotional turmoil though (because, strangely I get all emotional when things don’t go exactly as I want them to) if I had just stayed positive the whole time.

I guess the moral here is that complaining seems to add to your burden.  It is much better to approach things with gratitude and a positive spirit, if for nothing else than to ease the stress your own thoughts can cause.


Just Jot It January is hosted by Linda G. Hill.  Today’s prompt, complaint, is brought to us by Willow.


JustJoJan Day 16 – Impenetrable Walls

Do you ever feel like there’s an impenetrable wall of goo surrounding your head and every thought you think has to go through that goo?  It makes for unclear thoughts, I’ll tell you that much.

I don’t know why, but it’s been a rough day.  I spent most of the day doubting myself and my abilities at work – to the point that I texted my fiance that I probably needed to talk to my boss about a demotion.  I realized as I was driving home that I’m not feeling well, so maybe this all has to do with a head cold…

I’m hoping that’s all it is, because when I get like this, everything just seems terrible.

It doesn’t help that I live in a valley surrounded by mountains where the air gets trapped.  I woke up to not really snow, but just white fluff on the ground and fog everywhere.  I would call it a frozen wasteland (because that’s the mood I happen to be in).  It makes me wonder how any of us survive the winter months when the air we are breathing is so terrible.  But, I’ve lived here my whole life and I’m still standing.  Which means that I will survive this winter, just like I have all the others.

I’m just longing for some bright, warm sun that isn’t muffled by a wintry sky.  I’m thinking I need to retire in Florida or Jamaica…

My co-worker and I have been working with quite a few vendors in Mexico, and one of them told her today that we should set up an office in Juarez, Mexico because there is a huge demand.  I told my co-worker that we need to learn Spanish and bring up the idea of opening that office because, I don’t know… maybe Mexico wouldn’t be so bad?

Anyway, I guess you can clearly see that I’ve played some escapism today.  I’m just ready for a clear head, a warm blanket and a hug from my baby.  That should make it all better, right?

Just Jot It January is hosted by Linda G. Hill.  Today’s prompt, danger, is brought to us by Blog Woman.


Song Lyric Sunday – Light in the Hallway by Pentatonix

Ever since Adelle introduced me to Pentatonix, I have been in love with them.  I started singing pretty young and was in a choir all through high school.  This group makes me think of those times and how much I loved harmonizing with a group of singers.

I honestly didn’t know which song I was going to pick when I posted the theme yesterday, but as I was laying in bed this morning, I thought of this song and I realized it said almost exactly what I said in my post yesterday.

I don’t know about you, but there are still times that I just want to call my Mom and have her chase the monsters away.  I hope my kids always know that I am here for them, no matter how old they are.

I do hope you enjoy this song as much as I do.

Light in the Hallway by Pentatonix
Written by Scott Hoying, Mitch Grassi and Audra Mae
Lyrics found at AZ Lyrics

Close your eyes, lay your head down
Now it’s time to sleep
May you find great adventure
As you lie and dream
If you’re scared of the darkness
I will calm your fear
There’s a light in the hallway
So you know I’m here

So count your blessings every day
It makes the monsters go away
And everything will be okay
You are not alone
You are right at home
Goodnight, goodnight

You won’t need me forever
But I’ll still be here
For we all have our nightmares
Even me, my dear
From now on, if you need me
You can sing this song
There’s a light in the hallway
Burning all night long

So count your blessings every day
It makes the monsters go away
And everything will be okay
You are not alone
You are right at home
Goodnight, goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight


The Song Lyric Sunday theme for this week was to post a song about the parent/child relationship.  Please feel free to click the link, read the rules and post one of your own.


Song Lyric Sunday Theme for 1/15/17

I’m busily getting ready for my very first real party in our new house.  I’m trying not to overdo it, but I’m not so good at that.  I will most likely pay for it all tomorrow, but I’m more excited than I can say.

The theme is always on my mind during the week, and this week was especially hard because every time I thought of it, I couldn’t really think of a good theme.  It wasn’t until just now that I decided to take from my post this morning and use it as the theme for this week.

So, our theme for Song Lyric Sunday is to post a song about the parent/child relationship.

As always, you can go your own way and post a song that has nothing to do with the prompt.  We’re all here sharing our love of music and lyrics, and most of all, having a great time!

If you would like to suggest a theme, I am open to suggestions.   Please either pop it in the comments or send me an email at redesp75@yahoo.com.

Here are the “rules”:

  • Post the lyrics to the song of your choice, whether it fits the theme or not
  • Please try to include the songwriter(s) – it’s a good idea to give credit where credit is due and it’s honestly just a simple Google search
  • Make sure you also credit the singer/band and provide a link to where you found the lyrics
  • Link to the YouTube video, or pull it into your post so others can listen to the song
  • Ping back to this post or my own Song Lyric Sunday post
  • Read at least one other person’s blog so we can all share new and fantastic music and create amazing new blogging friends in the process

Feel free to use the Song Lyric Sunday badge by copying it into your post or add it to your site to show you are participating.


SoCS and JustJoJan Day 14 – The Joy of Parenting

Parenting is a fun, terrible, wild ride of ups and downs and unexpected turns.  My favorite part of watching my kids grow is how they have become their own unique person.

I don’t know what it is about moving into this house, but I feel like I have more moments with my kids… like this morning sitting at the breakfast table (we had a table in the townhouse, but it was in such a cramped area that only one or two people could sit down at one time).  It was just me and the boys and we were laughing and joking around.  I missed those moments!

I’m constantly amazed at how different each child is, and yet they share so many similar qualities.  I’d like to think they each got an artistic flare from me – Jaxon loves to draw and takes amazing pictures; Adelle is attending a school dedicated to the arts, learning to build sets for theater (and really any type of performance); and Andru is my storyteller.  It’s amazing that it is all art but all so different at the same time.

I could sit and lament the fact that I was going through my dark times during their childhood so I don’t remember much, but I’m not going to do that.  While those moments were difficult and I’m lucky to still be here, those moments also shaped who I am today.  And I’m here now, enjoying each moment with my kids, as much as I can.

I posted the other day that I only just realized that my boys can actually do things, like lift heavy boxes and drill a shelf in the garage.  I didn’t really appreciate that at all until my surgery.  Actually, it happened before that when we were moving.  Jaxon was such a huge help and he continues to help make my life just a little bit easier.  When Adelle was here a few weeks ago, I called to let them know I was on my way home and she offered to start dinner!  It’s weird to think my daughter cooks!

As much as I love that my kids are growing and becoming more and more independent, sometimes I still think of them as children who need me to take care of them.  I’m still trying to hold onto those moments where I cook breakfast for them and do their laundry…. that might sound strange, but I enjoy doing things for them and it’s hard to think that they don’t really need me for any of those things anymore.

It’s exciting to watch them grow, but I can’t help but think that soon enough, it will just be me and my partner.  Best enjoy their company while I can, right?

Stream of Consciousness Saturday and Just Jot It January are both hosted by Linda G Hill. Today’s prompt is “a word that starts with the letter P”.

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Friday Fictioneers and JustJoJan Day 13 – The Hospital Room


She heard the door shut and breathed a sigh of relief.  The room was confining and the view out the window was tortured; but neither of those things mattered.  She preferred the tiny room and the shitty view to nurses pretending to care.  Their fake smiles were like razors.

Looking down at the bandages covering her wrists, she remembered.  It seemed like a dream – the knife, the cuts… so much blood.  The absence of pain was the strangest part of all.  She still couldn’t feel it and that pissed her off.

That had been the whole point – to finally feel.

But, she couldn’t even manage that.

Friday Fictioneers is a weekly flash fiction prompt where we are given a photo and asked to write a 100 word story – beginning, middle and end. This one came in at 107 words.  I also chose to combine Just Jot It January hosted by Linda G. Hill.  Today’s prompt, hospital, is brought to us by Charlene at FaithtoRaiseNate.com.

Click on the blue froggy to read other amazing 100-word stories!